The snake, the hermit and the heart.

We have made it past the darkest weeks of winter. The light is slowly returning and the whispers of spring hold promise of blooms to come. As i sit here contemplating the full moon in Leo and what it means to have a big roaring heart, I have to be honest. I feel blank and numb. 

My head is overwhelmed and my heart feels heavy. I know I need to be with this. I know tomorrow may be different. In this moment the roar I wish for isn’t there. In this moment I want to stay with the cocoon of winter, unobserved and quiet. I’m tired of input, opinions and people pontificating about this or that. I’m tired of judgements and constant chatter. 

In Chinese astrology we have entered the year of the wood snake. Connecting numerology with Tarot, this is also the year of the Hermit. I very much feel the squeeze and discomfort of shedding old skin. When snakes get ready to shed, they become more temperamental and lethargic. They are constricted and itchy in their old skin. Their eyes turn a milky blue color in preparation for the shed and they even become temporarily blind. 

In this moment THIS is what I relate to. I relate to the theme of the Hermit. Wanting to stay snuggled and warm in the coziness of my cave. 

This feels like a massive shift. I’ve always felt myself wanting to move into spring quickly. Wishing that winter be more of a blip than a full season. This year I see the gentle stirrings of spring and I am grateful for them, but I am content sitting with the wisdom of winter a bit longer. 

This is being present with the heart. It’s okay that there is a spark instead of a blaze and overwhelm instead of joy. I’ll roar when I’m ready. Perhaps it will be with this moon, perhaps a little later. I can trust that it will come when it’s needed. Not a moment sooner. 

Tend to your hearts sweet friends, in whatever way is needed for you. Take care and take your time.

~Bree

Practice: Being with the heart

All you need for this practice is your presence and a few minutes.

~Find a comfortable seat or reclined position.

~Begin by vigorously rubbing the hands together to generate some heat. As you do this take some deep breaths.

~When you feel ready, place one or both of your hands over your heart center continuing with slow, steady breath.

~Ask your heart if there is anything it needs or wants to share.

~Listen to your heart as long as you wish and give it thanks when you are complete.